[revised translation of the second half of this]
- Aren’t you being a little hard on yourself?
"But isn’t everything like that? Say my girlfriend cheated on me. I’d definitely get angry, in real life. But then there’s me not being able to be serious. In the end, if I was appealing, she should have been looking only at me. I was deficient in something, or there was something I lacked… In the end, I was the one who failed to notice that lack."
- But both sides of a couple have an implicit promise that they can trust the other. Even if they break that, you still blame yourself?
"But what is that promise regarding? For example, I think the concept of "going out" or "not going out" is strange. Because you’re going out with someone, you each become the other’s possession? That’s not right, is it? Because people have will of their own, they can’t become a possession. But most people create a delusion, and as soon as they decide they’re going out they start to think of their partner like a possession. Then, when they do something, it’s like "Why are you like that? Even though I do all this for you." Even if we assume that in the world there is an act called "going out", it’s still only whether I like my partner or not. Then, if my partner likes me too, and that situation continues for a long time, that’s the greatest happiness. But because what’s important is my own feelings, I don’t want to make a promise like taking possession of my partner."
-Those societal promises, so to speak…Like morals and common sense, there are quite a few of them, right? It seems like there’s a lot things that Gackt doesn’t accept as set in stone…?
"There are, a lot. If we talked about that, I’d start speaking terrorism (laughs). But isn’t it weird. Biker gangs are no good, but above the rooftops are low flying fighter jets. We can stop one, but not the other. In the name of the country. It’s bullshit. We’re taught that shoplifting is terrible. But politicians and bureaucrats do corrupt things in the shadows. Certainly, neither of them is a good thing. But the ones on top saying that it’s bad are doing the same thing. It’s inconsistent bullshit. Laws might be a framework decided by people in order to live easily, but, for example, there are people not satisfied with school rules. Although they were originally created for the sake of the students, the teachers use them as a shield to restrict students, right? But that’s not only the fault of the teachers. They don’t understand that with the word freedom, responsibility comes as a pair. Because there are a lot of teachers who can’t teach the meaning of that. So it just becomes that we obey the rules for no reason, and people are opposed to asking why. It’s difficult."
- Then what’s the biggest promise you’ve made to yourself in your life?
"Not to lie to myself. I will absolutely keep that."
- You’ve never broken it?
"No, not even once. It’s a heavy promise, but I think if I broke it, I would destroy myself."
[Original tweets from April 2011, I wonder how she’s doing…]
[Someone recalls seeing his grandma at his first live in Okinawa waving to the fans]@.G_Blue The energy of people’s feelings is infinite. When my grandma came to my live, she was in a condition where she only had a few months to live. So I told her I’d show her a last concert and she came from Okinawa to Yokohama in a wheelchair. When everyone’s voices reached her during the show she stood up and answered. On the way home she walked. She’s 102 now.
[“Okinawan people certainly live long, healthy lives”]@.kyomaru0808 I’m very proud of my grandma. When she came to my show in Okinawa, she was leaning on people’s shoulders as she walked. When I introduced her during the show, everyone waved. When my mother and aunt offered their hands to her on the way home, she said “Everyone’s watching. I can’t embarrass Gaku!” and went home by herself. I’m proud of her motivation.
I guess if she’s still alive, she’d be 104-105 now…
Me: Okay, so do you have any questions about me or my country? In English if you can.
Kid: What music do you like?
Me: I like Gakuto.*
Kids: (blank look)
One Kid Up The Back: OH I THINK MY MOM LISTENS TO HIM.
Female Teacher In 40’s Or 50’s: Really!? You like GACKT? He’s very handsome, isn’t he?
14 Year Old Boy: AHHHHHHH OH MY GOD GACKT I FUCKING LOVE GACKT TOO HE’S SO AWESOME.
(* Protip: Approximately no one ever in Japan knows the English pronunciation of “GACKT”)
By the way, I have to talk about the most impressive moment in the orchestral concert yesterday (which was pretty much nothing but 100% impressive from beginning to end).
At the end of the recording of Stay the Ride Alive, there’s a digital effect that slides the pitch of GACKT’s voice up electronically as he holds the last note.
Yesterday, he did that LIVE.
WITH HIS ACTUAL VOICE.
I basically spent the entire outro of the song freaking out in my head “WHAT NO THERE IS NO WAY HE JUST UH-UH NO”
(Also I didn’t notice but my friend swears that she saw him make a little victorious fistpump gesture to himself after he nailed it, lmao)